This weekend I had the privilege to work on Caya Coven’s Maker’s moon. In it, we honored the Goddess Brigid, and crafted a lovely tincture in her honor.
This was my first experience Invoking a goddess for a public ritual. I raised my hand to the task, for some reason unknown to me. You see…much of my magic and my crafting is done wordless. I might make a sigil for a spell (ok…the sigil at ONE point had words…but it’s not the same as speaking them aloud), but most of the time, I just visualize. I see the energies around me, and ask them to do things with and for me. I see the faces and the energies of the goddess and the god… I see these things with my Third Eye. Because I see and feel the energies and the energies I’m working with move, I rarely feel the need for words.
But, when working a PUBLIC ritual, I cannot simply have people enter my brain and see what I see. (Do you see what I see???). Even if I were to attempt to put words to my visions, things tends to come out garbled, as some energies just don’t really have words to describe them. They just are. I see them, and they ARE. What does it look like? Well, you know… stuff.
This initiate year will challenge me in a lot of ways, but particularly in the area of WORDS.
Invoking the Goddess Brigid, and bringing a message from her to the circle. My first large wordy task in a ritual. How appropriate that it is for the Goddess that inspires poetry?
Now, what I knew of Brigid before this ritual was typical of what i know about most deities I don’t work with regularly: very basic, surface-level knowledge. She’s the Goddess of the Forge and Hearth. She’s a celtic Goddess. She’s celebrated at Imbolc and she was made a Saint & is honored at Candlemas. Sooo…of course I need to do my homework to get to know her better in order to invoke her and offer a message to the community…
On writing an invocation
I was given some great advice on how to write an invocation: meditate and create some poetry (doesn’t have to rhyme) on the key aspects of the Goddess. But before I did that, I did a google search to see what others have written in Her honor. While many of the invocations were good, none of them really felt right….really felt long enough or felt like they honored the many abilities she has. My invocation to Brigid pulls from my learning more about what she represents the days leading up to the ritual. It took longer than I expected to put it together, but I felt that it brought more meaning to her invocation than many I found online:
Hail Brigid. Exalted One. Daughter of Dagda
Come to us. The Smith who forges us into tools of change in this world. Through the power of shaping, by Fire and by Water
Come to us, as the Harp of Poets igniting inner creativity and passions.
Come to us, the cup of healing Your sacred wells a salve, to soothe wounds, heal bodies and spirit.
Come to us, spring mother Hearth of comforts, with bounty and plenty. Bringer of first spring of new life.
Come to us The Woman of Skill, crafting the herbs Angelica: that clears congestion Basil: that eases the stomach and Blackberry: that cleanses kidneys
Come to us Brigid, Goddess of the Forge, of Poetry, Healing, and the Hearth. Hail & Welcome
On bringing the message from the Goddess
And here is where my nerves really began to kick in. Personally, I have received some amazing words of wisdom, of insight, things to think about in my life while attending various rituals. The priestess always spoke with a certain eloquence. I’m not talking Aspecting here….oh no…that’s a whole different blog. I’m talking about where a message is given to the participants. A message from the Goddess that will provide insight & advice. And that was on me. The One Who Lacks Words.
All I could think about is: “I can’t Word”
So…I prepare myself by getting to know Brigid more. I write up a blurb I thought would be neat to say. And then I kept getting this questions rolling through my head. I knew these questions were the message I needed to deliver. But….it wouldn’t be very impressive to stand in the center and just rattle off 3-4 questions with no explanation, say Blessed Be and sit down. So I write up a thing. A script of sorts. And I fully intended to have it memorized and it would work out oh-so-peachy…
Then job & kids happened, and it did not get memorized.
After talking with the other priestesses working this ritual about my nervousness, it was brought to my attention that essentially I already had the knowledge i needed to just speak without memorization. But that honestly scared me. You see, I have a very “Monkey brain” when I’m speaking. I go off on tangents. Even in the classroom, a lesson will devolve into a story (though related) about my family, or some other anecdotal tale from another source (but they like to hear about my kids…). I found my mind, even when writing up my little paragraph of a message, going off on tangents. There are soo many aspects of Brigid, and many miracles associated with her. What if I get on a tangent and babble on? What if I forget my train of thought and freeze up? What if (and this is my biggest fear) I say something about Brigid that offends in some way a devotee of her? Or even offends Herself? Soo much doubt. I truly hold a lot of doubt within my brain.
As the ritual moves on, my nerves for this section build up. I have a general outline of what I want to say, and I deliver the message.
It wasn’t the total train-wreck I feared it would be.
It totally….TOTALLY could have been tighter, and more precise. I felt my mind trying to go off onto topics I hadn’t planned to talk about. I had to keep bringing myself back…I had to resist the urge to say “you know, that thing”, as I cannot assume everyone in the circle knows a great deal about Brigid. I’m sure they did, but I cannot just make that assumption.
And then there is ending….I need to work on my closing.
I now know some very specific things I need to work on for the next ritual,and all the rituals after that: keeping my words clear & concise. It will be a challenge.
Coming soon: A post about what I learned about Brigid….